I Have a New Internship

It's a New Year dawning.  That could be the name of a movie, or a great first line of a song.  It isn't.  It's just a fact.  In two days time, we turn the pages on another year.  I always get reflective this time of year - looking back, asking questions, formulating responses, and desiring to make the new year a better year.  2013 brought a lot of changes for me.  With a slight tweak in ministry positions, I sought the Lord as to what this new season of life meant.  As I began to dig into the first book of the New Testament, I sensed the Lord taking me back to the basics, a sort of personal one-to-one discipleship.  He challenged me to "practice righteousness" in a "Follow-Jesus" sort of way.  I've been reminded that following is easy in the sense that you just do what the one in front does; you just step in his foot-prints and let him lead.  I've also been given some specific instructions for growing deeper as I've followed.  These things became part of the "practice," the "training in righteousness."  That's when things started to get complicated.  I've found the instructions seem simple enough, but the actual doing, the actual following isn't as easy as it may appear.  Those things have stretched me, caused me to explore the motives of my heart, and I have not really liked what I've seen.  If you haven't been keeping up, here are some of the practices I've been working on exploring:

Generous giving

Fervent praying

Frequent forgiving

Regular fasting, &

Overcoming anxiety

Now, as I sit on the brink of 2014, I've once again picked up my Bible to where I left off, and began in Matthew10.  Jesus summons his disciples, blesses them with authority, and gives them some last-minute instructions. This is the beginning of their do-it-on-your-own-while-I'm-still-around phase of an internship in following.  This seems to be where he wants me in 2014.  I'm to go beyond the practice (but, believe me, I'm still practicing, because I don't have it down to perfection - thank goodness, he who began a work in me will do the perfecting!).  Now, I'm participating in an internship in discipleship.  This just happens to be personal training for his final instructions as Jesus leaves planet earth:  Go and make disciples (Matthew 28:18-20).

Before he pats me on the back and shoves me out the door (I've said it before, I much prefer FOLLOWING; I don't WANT to lead), he gives a few final instructions.  I'm listening carefully, because I don't want to do this wrong.  Here they are (you'll need to read Matthew 10 to fill in the blanks).

1)  Go to the church first...  You are to prepare them to be ready for the kingdom to come... Some of the things you'll need to address:  Healing (physical, emotional, spiritual), raising the dead (believe me, some churches need a little new life), cleansing (Jesus says the leper, but I'm reading into that sinner), and casting out evil spirits.

2) Continue giving generously, praying fervently, forgiving frequently, and fasting regularly…

3) Travel is required, so you'll need to live simply and pack lightly (I'm learning this one)…

4) No need to worry about what you'll say:  I'll speak through you (thank you, Jesus!)…

Now, I know what you may be thinking:  Aren't you already doing this…sort of?  I am.  Sort of.  I think the challenge for me is to step it up, to be more intentional, to be more specific.  Here's the verse that leapt off the page:

What I (Jesus) tell you (Peg) in the darkness (the experiences of life), speak into the light (share your story); and what you hear me whisper in your ear, proclaim on the housetops.  

Matthew 10:27

In other words, wherever I am, talk MY Jesus-story.  Allow others to see the hero of my life…when they do, maybe they'll be attracted to the hero.  Maybe they will want to be a Jesus-follower, too.  That's the point of my life. That's the reason of my existence.  That's how I best reflect his glory off the canvas of my life.  It's how you do, too.  In spite of the difficulties.  Maybe, because of the difficulties, the dark-moments, the hard times, and yes, even the times of joy when the Lord seems most present, we take advantage of sharing our Jesus-stories.  We show off our hero, the one who rode into our lives first in the belly of a humble girl, and found new life in a manger.  The one who took the very nature of a servant, setting aside his right to be God, so that we might have a way to victory.  That's the Jesus who changes our lives every day.  That's the one I love to talk about!  You?

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Oh…PS.  Our internship comes with a warning (we need to be prepared).  EXPECT PERSECUTION.  With follower-ship status, we are awarded our own cross.  I think that's why Jesus closes out his instructions on what it looks like to be a true follower with these words:

Come - all who are heavy laden (weary and worn out) and you will find rest for your souls…

We will wear out in the following if we don't come often, and come consistently.  Only then, ONLY THEN, will the

Yoke be easy and the burden light.

Matthew 11:28-30

Joseph and I Share Similar Fears

Joseph's side of the Christmas story begins in Matthew 1:19 with these words:

And Joseph (Mary's) husband, being a righteous man, and not wanting to disgrace her, desired to put her away secretly.

I've thought a lot about Joseph over the last few weeks.  I've wondered about the kind of man he was; what he thought; how he felt.  Somehow it helps me to dive under the words that are written on a page and really get to the humanness of our Bible characters.  Sometimes the Christmas story becomes so familiar we don't truly KNOW it, if you know what I mean.  Sometimes, in its familiarity, the people become god-like, and rise off the pages of Scripture as beyond-human.  Not so.  As I've reflected on Joseph, he and I share some similarities.  

So, if we look just at the words above that introduce us to the man, we could easily get hung up on one word:  righteous.  Joseph was righteous.  Yet, Romans 3:23 tells us this:  

…for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.

Even Joseph.  The Bible can't contradict itself.  So, instead of thinking of Joseph as this morally pure, blameless individual, we have to recognize that he, like me, like you, was a sinner.  So, how do we put two, somewhat contradictory, passages together?  Here's my take…

Joseph had a heart-with-a-right-want (read that verse again…he didn't want to shame Mary; he desired to do the right thing).  Joseph sincerely wanted to do right.  So much so that he lived to be a good law-abider (just like most Jewish men of his day).  Joseph's compassionate heart (again, read into that verse above) wrestled with his right-doing.  He often asked these questions of himself:  What is the right thing to do?  What should I do that would best fulfill God's laws?  How can I live, therefore, and be who I am, and still be a good Jewish leader?  People noticed this about Joseph, and when they gave a description of his character, they called him righteous.  

When it came to Mary's (cough, cough) "condition," he struggled.  Compassion often can't stand alongside law.  Sometimes, they are like trying to mix together oil and water.  Joseph was being advised by the church leaders of his community.  According to LAW, Joseph had a right to condemn Mary to death by stoning (she'd, obviously, been unfaithful).  At the least, he had every right to divorce her in a shaming scandal and put her in her place.  Those would be the RIGHT options.  The LAW options.  As we now know, Joseph was a law-abider.  He wrestled, however, with those options.  In between the lines, we read of his love for Mary, his deep compassion for his wife.  He had to have wondered:  What if she was telling the truth?  Having observed her character over the years of their promised arrangement, he knew what kind of a humble woman she truly was.  Her story seemed to contradict her character.  All of a sudden, she was either a scandalous liar, a crazy woman, or there was truth to her story.  He had to have gone back in his mind to try and remember everything he knew about the Law and the Prophets regarding the coming Messiah.  Did the words of Isaiah start ringing in his mind as he wrestled?  A virgin shall give birth (Mary claimed to still be a virgin)…and shall bear a Son, God-with-us (yes, she claimed to be carrying God's child, a son).  

I'm thinking Joseph nearly went out of his mind trying to figure out what was RIGHT.  He wanted to please the Jewish leaders, who knew the law far better than he, but he didn't want to turn Mary into an outcast, either.  I ask the same kinds of questions Joseph did. But (!), when I'm trying to make a decision, I am so afraid of making the WRONG choice, I almost always let someone else make the choice for me.  That's where I think Joseph figured the best option was the secret-option. Do the quiet thing.  That option would fulfill the law and be as easy on Mary, as possible.  Yet, hanging over his head, weighing on him, was the ever present, "what if." He feared standing before God one day having made the wrong choice.  For the record, I sometimes do the same…  Bottom line, Joseph and I, both live in fear of not being righteous, not doing the right thing, and then having to stand before God to give an account.

Insert the angel during a restless night of sleep in the middle of a dream.  First thing the angel did was to assure Joseph about his fears.  To do so, he assured Joseph about the child.  Two names.  Two promises.  Two prophecies fulfilled.  Here's what Joseph heard:  Joseph, you can never do right on your own. You can never be good enough. You will always be a sinner and you need a Savior.  Good won't get you to heaven.  Law-abiding, no matter how hard you try, will never be enough.  This boy is your righteousness.  He is your Savior.  So, you will call him, Jesus.  Not only that, remember the words of the prophet, Isaiah, Jesus has to come to earth through a virgin. It's the only way that God-the-Son can come in flesh. It's part of the process of God-with-you always.  Not only will you be saved from sin to true righteousness, but you will have victory over future sin as God dwells in you. It has always been the case, Joseph, God-with-you eliminates all fears!  Remember other words of Isaiah:

Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely, I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My right hand (41:10)!

Those brief words were enough for Joseph.  Those brief words should be enough for me.  The promises of Christmas are wrapped in two names: Jesus Emmanuel.  My Savior With Me.  Hallelujah - what a Savior! He delivers us from ALL OUR FEARS!

I Dropped Baby Jesus

Last week, I was asked to speak at a women's Christmas event.  It was meant to be an outreach to women in the community who might come to celebrate the season in a lovely location, whereas they might not make it through the doors of church.  I've done this event before, and thoroughly enjoyed it.  I always love sharing about Jesus.

HoWeVeR! This night, I struggled.  I shared everything I went to share.  My message was OK.  My take-away was clear.  The mechanics were just a mess.  I went with an object lesson.  It worked well at home.  I envisioned a podium.  I planned on a head-set or a lapel mic.  I figured my hands would be free.  The object lesson was the first part of the message.  Everything, from that moment on, hinged on the smoothness (sort of) and the transition of that example. There was no podium, not even a place for my Bible (I had to put everything on the floor and bend up and down getting my things).  The mic was a hand-held, and having only one hand available was a HUGE problem for this object lesson, which included unwrapping a package.  To say the object lesson did not work well is an understatement, during which I probably lost 90% of the audience.  The worst part of that whole moment came when I dropped baby Jesus (he was in the box I unwrapped).  Yep!  I dropped him.  I heard a few snickers in the audience (that helped bring back a few of the 90% lost), and I felt like someone had hit me in the chest with a 2 x 4. So, I bungled my way through the rest of the painful 20 minutes.  Again, I said everything I went to say.  We talked about the promises of Christmas.  We discussed how every promise of Christmas was wrapped up in the Names of Jesus.  One little baby with a multitude of names.  A baby so mysterious and majestic that one name could not, would not, do.  We looked at two names in particular.  Two names that calmed Joseph's fears and led him to take Mary as his wife, and to raise Jesus as his own.  We talked about how those two names, Jesus and Immanuel, were promises enough for me.  I had the privilege of sharing my story, which began at Christmas when a messenger from God (an angel?) explained my need of a Savior, and how that Savior would be God-with-me forever, if I just let him consume my heart, and gave him my all.  What a joyous moment of life-change for me! I became a Saul-turned-Paul, only no one gave me a new name.  Unquestionably and without doubt, that story (those promises) changed me FoReVeR.  HoWeVeR!  I had dropped Jesus.  I just couldn't get past that moment…and it colored the whole evening.

On Tuesday (following Friday night's mess), I laughingly (that was good therapy) told a couple of friends over lunch how I had dropped Jesus.  At that moment, the Lord gave me a new look at that Christmas message, an inspired look.  Don't we all drop Jesus?  Sometimes we drop him in the middle of the Christmas season (or before it actually begins).  Jesus gets dropped in the midst of preparations and shopping, crowds and present-wrapping, food-making and parties, decorations and hubbub, and hoopla!  Sometimes we actually manage to make it through the holiday season focusing on that babe, reflecting on his mission, and responding to it with heart-felt desire, then as soon as the nativity scenes and the decorations are boxed up for another year, we drop him.  Sometimes the Christ-child is totally left out of the "X"mas season, and the holiness of Christmas simply becomes "Happy Holidays"…  Yes, don't we all "drop Jesus," at one time or another…????????

That was what I really went to say to those ladies, but didn't quite get it out at that time in the middle of my embarrassment of an object-lesson-gone-awry.  I can say it now.  We all tend to drop Jesus (fortunately he didn't, and doesn't, break).  This Christmas, let's make it a point to pick him up and allow his birth and his purpose on earth to meaningfully impact us for all eternity…

P.S.  Secretly (or not so secretly) and sincerely, I want to be an angel like the one who came to me almost 40 Christmases ago.  (What a messenger! What a gift I was given!) Maybe I can be if I can hold onto Jesus without dropping him!

Jesus Didn't Follow the Rules (He Wasn't What Anyone Expected)...

As I’ve been reading the book of Matthew, I’ve been trying to keep in mind that this disciple is writing to the sons and daughters of Abraham.  He wants them to KNOW Jesus was the Son of God, the Messiah, the long awaited-anointed-ONE!  He quotes prophecy over and again, to show how Jesus fulfilled it.  He is lavish in presenting them/us with the miracles and healings Jesus performed.  Yet, I get the feeling that Jesus’ ways didn’t convince the Jewish people, longing for a Messiah.  He wasn’t what they EXPECTED!  Sometimes, yes, he was ALL they hoped for, other times, not so much!  Not at all. 

After I spent a few weeks thinking about what it means to follow Jesus, it just struck me as to why this was the case.  Remember the teaching of Jesus at Matthew’s house about the wineskins?  He was answering the questions of the religious leaders as to why he did things so differently…  Why did Jesus eat with sinners & tax-collectors?  Why didn’t he fast like the rest of them?  Jesus answer was that he wanted them to consider a whole new way of thinking… He was letting them know that with his coming, he would initiate a NEW Covenant relationship…

So, I had to go back and look at Jesus’ teaching to that point in Matthew 9.  Jesus taught as one with authority, but Jesus teachings are quite paradoxical to typical thought of the day.  Go back and look at his first sermon on the hillside.  Start at Matthew chapter 5.  The first words out of Jesus’ mouth were words of blessing (here’s how you can be blessed).  Malachi was the last of the prophets; he gave the last of God’s spoken words before 400 years of silence ensued.  Look at his final word:  “And he (pointing to the forerunner of the Messiah) will restore the hearts of the fathers to their children, and the hearts of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the land with a curse (Mal 4:6, emphasis mine).”  The Old Testament ends with threats of a curse; but Jesus comes with words of blessing.  Consistently, we hear Jesus say these words, “You have heard…”  He then follows those words with a new thought, “…but I tell you…”  Jesus didn’t follow the rules.  As a result, he confused his Jewish brethren.  While it appeared as if he could be the Messiah, he was unlike anything they had hoped or expected. 

Not only were his teachings different, his actions were unexplainable.  He reaches out (& TOUCHES, heaven-forbid!) the untouchables and the unlovables.  He befriends tax-collectors and Roman soldiers.  He honors a Samaritan-dog, a woman, no less, with words of encouragement, a hope for tomorrow, and presents her with salvation.  He heals lepers, welcomes prostitutes, and casts out demons.  He talks about not judging others, then appears to judge those who are righteous, while welcoming the unrighteous.  He parties instead of fasting.  Jesus was confusing, because Jesus didn’t fit a safe, explainable package.  As a result, the sons of Abraham couldn’t seem to wrap their minds around the concept of him as their Messiah.

I wonder, then, what is the church’s view of Jesus?  Have we tried to make him safe?  Have we tried to create a version of Jesus that is explainable?  If so, in doing, have we not given the world an accurate picture of a God-of-mystery?  A God who will take a lifetime to understand and to know?  I’m afraid I might be guilty of wanting to make Jesus so desirable, I attempt to make him explainable.  Yet, the bottom line is that I don’t want an explainable, comprehendible, live-up-to-my-expectations Jesus.  I want a God who is approachable, yes!  I want a God who loves me, yes!  I want a God who cares and reaches out to touch and embrace and draw near, absolutely!  Yet, I want a God of mystery.  I want a Jesus who doesn’t fit any box of thought or expectation.  I want Jesus to be so big, he’s unexplainable, for if I can explain him - he ceases to be God.  If I minimize his mystery, I no longer need him.  Indeed, I NEED HIM too much for this to be the case.  May I always marvel at his mystery, and help others to do the same! I hope I never figure Jesus out...

What a great way to begin reflection as we move toward Christmas...

This Time it's the "Should's" That Caught Me

I am such a random thinker; it’s why I titled this blog “Just a Thought.”  I can’t really ever be trusted to stay in focus, since my ADHD brain simply skips all over the place.  So, this morning, what’s on my mind has nothing to do with where I've been headed as I walk through the book of Matthew.  It is still a part of being a follower.  It does incorporate an aspect of practicing righteousness; and, I do know we all need reminders like this one.

Last night was one of those nights…another one, just like last week.  Do you have them? Probably.  I still have them often, though not as often as in the past (this is progress).  My over-active brain used of most of the dark-hours mentally/verbally beating myself up.  The drill is typical for me…and another cause of anxious thinking:  “You shouldn’t have said…”   “You should have said…”  “You have such a bad attitude…”  “If only you were more…”  “What makes you think you can…”  “What a failure!”  “You are guilty of…”  “What a bad daughter, wife, mother, grandma, speaker, mentor…”  “You really are pretty useless…”  “What could I/should I/ do I need to do differently?”   I finally fell asleep in time to wake up again, and, when I got up, I physically felt beat-up, as well (that’s a result of getting older).  I hobbled to my typical morning spot, where I like to chat with Jesus, realizing I needed a mountain of this thing called GRACE – not just from Jesus, but to give as a gift to myself, as well.  Whether I felt like it, or not, there’s only one place to find it and that’s in the Word of Truth.  So, with coffee in hand, I opened my Bible, prepared to turn to Matthew, where I’ve been reading and listening verse by verse.

Instead, my Bible fell open to a favorite passage of Scripture.  Coincidence? I think not!  Zephaniah 3:17 is a favorite of many of us:

The Lord your God is in your midst; a victorious warrior.  He will exult over you with joy.  He will renew you (some translations read, “quiet you”) in His love.

He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy (again, some translations read, “singing” instead of “shouts of joy”).

Oh, my!  Immediately, I felt, inside and out, the same way I felt the first time I stood under a cascading waterfall in Kenya following an arduous hike.  Amazingly refreshed and renewed.  One verse, a waterfall of promises!  Here’s what’s true:

*  God is here – ever present!  Where he is, there is GRACE, GRACE God’s GRACE – greater than all my sin; all my mistakes; all the thoughts of "I should be better-than-this," all my shame.  GRACE that will pardon and cleanse within…  Sufficient GRACE; because the ever-present ONE is sufficient. 

*  God is fighting for me, in spite of me.  Under the wing of God’s presence, He fights to protect and see me to the end: complete in Him (not perfect, just complete).  The good news is that because He is God, He’s always victorious.  What may look like a defeat is only a temporary loss, my victory is secured.

*  Not only is he present, and fighting for me, at the same moment, he is rejoicing over me.  What a picture – my God dancing and singing, shouting exuberantly, because He loves being with me.  He loves being in MY PRESENCE.  If that won’t renew a soul, nothing will!  I don’t get it; I don’t know why…but I refuse to question it…it’s truth.

This morning, I am preaching three things to myself (we all need to remember to preach often to ourselves - seriously!):

I have his presence.  I have his protection (victory).  I have his promises.  Add them together, these things result in: fullness of joy and a quiet heart of peace. Yes, they do!  I am so grateful.  

What would I do without his WORD?  Oh, how I need it every day!  Hallelujah!

Your words were found and I ate them,

And Your words became for me a joy and the delight of my heart;

For I have been called by Your name,

O Lord God of hosts.

Jeremiah 15:16

The "Must" Problem…and Anxiety

I'm up at 2 AM.  This is ridiculous. My mind is clogged with random thoughts.  As I list them on paper (my way to unclog the brain-constipation), I see a repetitive word.  It's the key to why I'm awake.  The word is "must." In my running list of what is causing me a lack of much-needed-sleep, I repeat this word over and over.  I "MUST" do.  I "MUST" think about.  I "MUST" work on.  I "MUST" not forget.  So there you have it.  My problem has a name.  I didn't create it.  Someone else did.  It might seem a bit inappropriate at first glance.  I'll use it anyway.  The problem I face is "mustabatory thinking."

The "musts" are consuming and controlling my meant-for-sleep-time this morning.  As I stayed in bed, I created more "musts."  I "must" get this under control.  I "must" get back to sleep, because I "must" be up early.  I simply jumped from one "must" to another.  The truth is that I can do nothing about these things in the middle of the night.  However, the "musts" are addictive when it's dark and there are no distractions. The "musts" are addictive...and toxic.  The "musts" drive me away from a mind of peace that the Lord intends for His followers: the peace that passes all understanding and keeps my heart settled on him.  The "musts" reduce me to a state of anxiety.

Right. The cure, then, according to the Apostle Paul is LIGHT in the form of gratitude, prayer, and a think list (see Philippians 4:4-8).  I know this.  However, I'm reading in the book of Matthew for my LIGHT-STUDY at the moment.  God knows this.  So, where do I pick up?  Matthew 6:25-33 (in my Bible, it has a section title: The Cure for Anxiety).  Coincidence?  I think not.  Here are the key verses in this particular passage:

Seek first His kingdom and  His righteousness; and all these things shall be added to you.  Therefore, do not be anxious for tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own (6:33-34).

Jesus says, when it comes to anxiety, "Do not be...(vs 24)."  Does this mean that Jesus-Followers will never be anxious?  Let me ask another question: Does this mean that Jesus-Followers will never get a cold?  Of course not!  Anxiety is called the common-cold of emotional problems for a reason.  We will get anxious.  Period.  Yet, Jesus tells us would-be-followers that there's a better way than wallowing.  The better way is a way out.  We don't have to live there.  Jesus, bless his holy heart, gives us some steps up and out.  Mostly, if we really think about it, they are just reminders.  So, he reminds us of these things:
- He takes care of the details of our lives.  He's in charge.  He's SOVEREIGN.
-Worrying doesn't do me any good.  It doesn't change a thing.
-Replace the anxiety with Kingdom-mindedness and righteousness.
-Live fully in the moment.

So, here, in the middle of the wee-hours-of-the-morning, the only thing I can do from that list is "replace my thinking."  So, what does it mean to be Kingdom-minded, instead of earthly, worry-minded?  How do I think outside my own little selfish world to the bigger, grander world of the King of Kings?  Here's where Paul's commentary in Philippians 4 helps.  Look back a couple of paragraphs.  I can start with gratitude. As I list what I have to be thankful for, my heart begins to settle.  I make a "thank-you list" and I truly begin to sense contentment filling my heart (A GrEaT tHiNg to do the week of THANKSGIVING - coincidence, I think not).  I can add prayer, not just for myself and the details of my world (in fact, "self" is my problem, so I go elsewhere in prayer) , but for the greater good of the Kingdom and for others in need.  Prayer settles me even more.  I'm reminded of the BIG GOD who is in control and at work on behalf of his children.  I'm still awake, so after praying around the world, I begin to think on those things that are worthy of praise.  After being reminded of so many in my known-world who are hurting, and lifting them up, this is a great way to remember the character of my God-who-is-in-charge.  I'm beginning to yawn.  This is a good sign.

Yet, Jesus added a second "seeking."  He added to "seek His righteousness."  Oh, yes...Jesus followers practice righteousness.  In my case, the practice involves "confession."  My worry isn't indicative of a follower who is training for righteousness.  Do we ever read of Jesus worrying?  Outside of his wrestling with God's will before His death, I remember no time where He wondered about the tomorrows of his life.  So, like the one who is going before me, I repent of my "mustabatory thinking" and make a choice to also confess my trust of him-who-holds-all-my-tomorrows, and yield to all that the new day coming has for me...

...but, I think I'll go back to bed for a while.

Fasting & Social Justice

When I think of a day of fasting, I often equate it with doing nothing but sitting home and praying.  Praying is important (and I get that it goes hand in hand with fasting), but when I just pray, my mind goes straight to the food in my cupboards, and I want to go eat something.  When my mind starts thinking food, my stomach is alerted to wanting something substantial, and it starts growling.  The Lord NEVER MEANT for us to sit around and do nothing.  In Matthew 6:16-18, when Jesus talked about fasting, he assumed we’d still be with people, so he instructed us not to put on a gloomy face (in order to be seen by others as fasting).  Not only did Jesus assume we’d fast, and pray, but he assumed we’d be doing something significant on the day of our fast…  What?

I went back and read Isaiah 58, focusing on verses 6-12.  God leaves nothing to the imagination, and certainly, no reason to wonder or be confused.  In verse 6, he starts off with a question, “Is this not the fast which I choose…?”  Then, he explains.  The next six verses are all about what we would call “social justice.”  Our God is a God of one-anothering.  When we fast, we aren’t supposed to turn inward, sit idly around, and do nothing.  When we fast, we are supposed to be about other people.  We are to practice righteousness, by being service oriented, and loving on others. 

I’ll be honest here.  When I think of social justice, I think enablement.  Too often I go to that place of skepticism where doing for others means taking care of them in such a way that I shoulder responsibility for them instead of giving the kind of care that helps them do better, be better, and own their own responsibility.  It’s just MY opinion that sometimes we, as a nation, and, yes, as believers have mixed up the difference between taking care and giving care.  There is a difference!  One makes me feel responsible "to fix"someone's life, and will wear me out.  The other gives encouragement and direction that provides enough care to help someone move forward of their own accord, and no one wears out.  I don’t think attempting to fix anything for someone else is pleasing to the Lord, especially if it leads to exhaustion.  We need to maintain enough energy to keep-on-keeping-on for Kingdom’s sake.

Yet, I have so moved to one extreme that I’ve forgotten the call of the Lord to reach out in love and Christ-like service.  The Lord is not happy with that either.  So he tells us the kinds of things he’d like to see on our fasting days.  I’ll summarize, but be sure to read Isaiah 58.  Ways to serve:

• Do something to work against injustice (unfair practices)
• Find a ministry that helps others who are being exploited
• Share your food with the hungry
• Clothe those who are ill-clad
• Be available to your own families
• Quit blaming victims/others (offer forgiveness)
• Be generous to one in need
• Look for someone who is in an “empty place” and find a way to “fill their plate”
• Bring sunlight to one who is in darkness
• Quit gossiping about other people’s sins  (ouch)
• Ask the Lord for direction…bow the knee, for the Lord will continually guide you (verse 11).

In every spiritual practice of righteousness-training that Jesus mentions in Matthew 6, he talks about a reward.  If we practice for righteousness in the way he has lined out, we are rewarded.  He never tells us how.  The prophet Isaiah, writing the words of the Lord-God, does.  I love what he says to us:

If you give yourself… then, your healing will come speedily, and your righteousness will go before you; …then your gloom will become like midday, the Lord will continually guide you, and satisfy your desire in scorched places, and give strength to your bones; and you will be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water whose waters do not fail. (8, 11)

Do you, like me, ever find yourself dried up, emotionally spent, wallowing in unfulfilled desires, and wondering about the next steps of your journey?  God clearly has directed me this morning to get out of myself, go to another (particularly one who is worse off), and do something that looks quite like Jesus’ hands and feet.  I have a few ideas of where to start…

Fasting: More Than Just Seeking More of Jesus!

We’ve just arrived back in Colorado after our two-month road trip.  In reflection, I think this trip may have been more of a spiritual field trip in preparation for something the Lord is trying to teach me.  I’m asking for patience as I sit and ramble some, only because the thoughts that are running rampant through my brain haven’t yet been processed. I still need to put them together in one cohesive unit.  In this sense, I’m probably a bit premature with this blog, but everything seems to coincide with the study I’ve been digging into on being a Jesus-follower and fasting. 

First may I say, my country is truly beautiful from “sea to shining sea.”  I thoroughly enjoyed every breath-taking minute as we traversed this land, eyeing the landscape from the mountains to the valleys to the Eastern shoreline and back.  What a miracle that God chose to allow me to be born here in the midst of diversity and freedom.  I do not take that for granted.  I live in a land filled with resources – a land of plenty.  However…

I began to see my country in a new, and, I’ll admit, frightening way when we returned from Kenya.  Prior to our flight across the big pond, many of our family and supporters asked if we were fearful to go because of the recent terrorist attack on a Nairobi mall.  It never crossed my mind that this might deter us from going.  No, I was not intimidated.  Yet, when we returned to the US, our government had been through a chaos-driven two-week shut down, our national leaders seemed to be more divided than ever, Americans seemed to be battling their fundamental rights, and our president stood in front of the cameras speaking what some were calling “mis-truths” (a pretty way of avoiding the word “lied”).  As we caught up on homeland news, my heart felt dread-full-heavy.  We seem to be on the brink of disaster.  Unless someone steps on the brakes, we could easily be driven off a cliff…

So, this brings me back to the book of Matthew, and Jesus teachings about fasting.  Remember, he talked about “when” we fast, not “if” we fast.  Jesus assumes we will fast as a Jesus-follower.  My initial thoughts were that those who walk as Jesus walked do so because they want more of Him more than they want to fulfill the lusts of the flesh.  I still think this is so, but there’s more to fasting… 

In seeking more commentary from the Word on this subject, I’ve read Isaiah 58, Joel 1, Daniel 9, Zephaniah 1, and Nehemiah 1 (I invite you to read those chapters). Fasting and crying out (loudly!) were a commonality.  Fasting and confession always went hand in hand…not just personal confession, but, often, on behalf of the NATION.  When Joel called for a solemn assembly, he called for fasting and confession of Israel’s corporate sin - even so, the prophet Zephaniah.  When Nehemiah and Daniel fasted, they wept for their own sinful hearts, yes, but the bulk of their prayers were on behalf of their homeland.  The Lord, speaking through Isaiah, instructed the Israelites in how to fast properly in order that this nation might be led by Righteousness and protected by the Lord, as their Rear-Guard.

Here’s why I think I was sent on a field trip across the US (well, one of the reasons…): God is calling me to instill fasting as a regular rhythm of discipline on behalf of my country.  It’s one thing to see our country in snippets and another to see it in its entirety within such a short time frame.  I found myself falling in love with America in a way I had never loved her before.  As I fell in love with her, my heart ached for her.  She was birthed out of worship for God (religious freedom echoed out of the hearts of those who colonized her).  We are following a dangerous path that leads us away from our foundational heritage.  Our two-week trip out of the country also intensified these truths.  I have sensed my Lord asking me, “Do you love your country enough to pray and fast for her, confessing on her behalf, seeking Me to lead and protect?” 

Even though, honestly speaking, inside I dread the thought of this spiritual practice; because I want to be a Jesus-follower, to walk where he has walked, to train for righteousness, my heart is saying, “Yes, Lord.”